I don't know exactly where it comes from, but it feels like an attack. It feels as though I have been set up. It is as if I have been assigned to drive a car that has bad steering and brakes. No one else believes that there is anything wrong with the car and that I must be making excuses for my bad driving. It has come to the point where I start to question my driving as well when last week I KNEW it was a problem with the car and not me. It is quite maddening.
The mind is such a fragile thing, isn't it? It is a wonder that we all aren't mad. I guess some think that we are.
Still, with all the madness and uncertainty, I still know there is a peace down there. That is where the "Beautiful Mind" technique comes in. I must ignore what I "see" or feel, and concentrate on what I know. The KNOW must be stronger than the "feel".
I have such pity for those who cannot know that the peace is still there. I thank God for that assurance every day.