This post was originally just a response in the feedback section of my last post. It got to be long so I thought I would just post it here instead. The prerequisite to this post is the last one below. Read it first, if you just got here.
I was tempted to post all the feedback here, too, then I thought if people want to be in the know, they can read it for themselves. I don't want to force-feed it people that are just passing through.
So, if you want to know what I am talking about here, read the last post AND the feedback.
I really don't know how to respond to you guys (and I use the term loosely). The trouble with vague therapy posts is that everyone has an idea of the circumstances. In the specifics, I would say that people wouldn't get it. However, the mind works and responds to situations with principle, so in that aspect, there is sound advice input here.
Steph: I am sure your responses were no more nonsensical than my posts. Thanks. I can always use another rooter.
Galen: Thank you for validating the usefulness of my insanity. I am glad that you got something out of it.
Loz: I feel we are kindred spirits of sorts. Our circumstances aren't the same, but there is a thinking there that we both are able to tune in to. It is true that I have doubts, just not doubts about truth. The doubts are the courses I thought were right for me.
Michelle: You are right and I have already written about that standpoint in my post, "With No Apologies" on May 29. I wrote, "This painful time I am going through is, no doubt, a huge blessing that I just can't see yet. Therefore, pity is not necessary and congratulations are more in order - as upside down as that sounds. Despite the unlikliness of that from my tattered standpoint, I don't command my God to make sense, I just ask that He be there when I surrender. That is not so much to ask the Almighty who has already commited Himself to that very thing."
I still get it, but it is difficult. Of course, I knew it would be. Still, there is peace and even bliss just around the corner, Stephanie.